From my office in Plotting.

there are things, people, attachments, however shallow or otherwise they run, and self-fulfilling ideas that convince people to cement themselves to their surroundings (what they know, what's telling them that this is all they need to know) at least ankle deep*%$. read: what's keeping me here is really no good reason to keep me here.



* a cyclical phenomenon in my life thus far.
% a product of lack of self-worth. (truthfully i think the concept of "self worth" is ego-fuckery and maybe not worth mentioning here. maybe the point is more a lack of gauging a good distance between oneself and people that float the notion of "self worth" into your brain in the first place)
$ a social disease, traditionally involving co-dependent slobs.

the bad dreams

"seems we both build up these fantasies of our desires in our heads and try to manifest them in other people all the while disregarding the true reality of the relationships we involve ourselves in."

-my best ex